I have never been a practical person ever. have always been an emotional one.Maybe there has always been something wrong with me or maybe there is some sort of a problem but I have always been very loving,very caring,very sensitive,very emotional,maybe a bit too much.
have always cared a bit too much about what people think of me.l have always gotten very emotionally attached to people.Anytime I see a person in pain, cry.There are certain people about whom I am even more sensitive.A tear shedding from their eyes makes my heart shatter into a million pieces.l love them maybe even a bit more than I love myself.) remember praying for them to stay healthy and have a long life even if I had to score low in exams in exchange for that(innocent child,didn’t know that that’s not how prayers work. I have always wanted to please them.Everything I ever do,l have in mind that I want their approval.Anywhere I go,l miss them constantly.Of course I have my own flaws.Sometimes,I don’t pay attention to what they say or do what they tell me to.That’s just they say or do what they tell me to.That’s just because I am a lazy person.All I want is for them to understand that I am not a bad person or it is not that I don’t care.It’s just that I am a lazy person and that is one of my basic human flaws.That I do care and that I have my own nature and my own way of caring for them.I get angry at times,I get depressed,I fight,’ act crazy,) blame others for my problems when I am depressed whenever I hit rock bottom.The daily grind of life surely does take its toll on me.lt makes me angry and irritated.Seeing all the pain,misery and the immense amount of injustice that I see in the world these days.lt makes me want to rebel against everything.lt makes me feel helpless,seeing all the injustice and not being able to do anything about it.That is when I get drained.Emotionally drained.lt is at those moments,when I am at my weakest,at my worst,at my most miserable,my most vulnerable,that 1 want them to just at least try and understand what I feel.To just let me be for once.To just say something positive to me.To help me out of my depression.To help me cope with the stress.To not lust tell me things like “stag wallowina…”get not just tell me things like “stop wallowing”,”get out of your self pity”,”work harder ,correct yourself “,”try harder,”do more”.To just ask me if I am fine or to just hold me close to them and say a few words and assure me that they love me and have my back during the hardest times and during the times I have hit my lowest.During the times I am hardest to love.During the times I am unbearable.Those are the times I need the most love.Those are the times when I feel most lonelywhen I am in pain.Those are the times when I will fight with them because they are the only people I care the most about and I have only ever fought with people that I care about.) only want them to listen to me when I want to discuss a problem that I have with them.TO NOT JUDGE ME!To listen just in order to understand.They are the only people with whom I wanna feel like I am the safest.To feel like I am in a zero-judgement zone when I am with them.To be able to open up to them,be vulnerable in front of them,be weak and still know that I am not gonna be judged or hated,thought of as crazy or thought negatively of.To know that I am only gonna be understood,loved and listened to gonna be understood,loved and listened to without judgement.Everybody in the world needs to feel like that at times.lt is a human need.lt is not something odd to ask for or too much to ask for.lt does not mean that you are being dramatic.But as I have grown up,l have realised that being a person who is more emotional than practical is really hard,it’s tiring.People don’t try to understand such people the way such people try to understand everyone.lf you are a sensitive and/or emotional person,you always try to see the hidden side of people,their sorrows,insecurities that they don’t talk about and you don’t judge them for that.You try to understand what they must have gone through and how it has made them what they are today.You understand how someone could be having a bad day or a bad week or a bad month and how miserable it must be making them feel and how it can affect their mood.Because that is your nature,you always expect others to feel the same way but I have realised that people are generally more practical.That there is no such thing as “unconditional love”.Love is always conditional
“unconditional love”.Love is always conditional no matter who the person is.They don’t try to understand,they don’t feel empathy the way you do.They don’t love as deeply as you.This expectation hurts it hurts slot because when you are alone and you want someone like you,nobody is gonna try to understand or heal you.You are the only person who has to get back up after falling without help.lf you are someone like me,l hope that one day you get someone who would love you like that.